♥ this has gotta end.

i really really don't know what the hell is up with me..i'm totally bloated with mixed emotions..ok i know this is really emo but..i really don't know what to do..whatever, i'll just despretely try to put the fact that the guy that i'm hopelessly crazy about isnt noticing at all..and for the fact that i suck at everything i do..im sick and tired of being criticised by people of the why i am..ok maybe the reason that im feeling so low is because of my low grades..
it really really sucks..oh well then again who cares seriously..nothing can get me down..
right?

i just finished realing this literature book,to kill a mocking bird-harper lee...and no if your thinking sick let me tell you,it is NOT about 'BIRDS' neither is it about hunting..its super boring..but then again if it can improve my english then maybe its worth while(:

today,i truly realized the meaning of life today..seriously,have you ever thought fo the fact that why are we even in this crude world?i did..and i guess i managed to find a P-R-E-E-T-Y good explanation for it(to me)..we exist in this world to change and affect the life of the people around us..when you see a person being cold,melt his heart by being nice and warm to him..that way he'll be touched..OR..when someone does a wrong thing, i personally do not believe that violence is the key to unlocking whats behind the person is really thinking when they did that..i really think what we should be doin is preaching the 'wrongness' of everything he did..ok lame explanation but ,its kinda a philosophy..hmm..maybe i should become ambitious and try to become an philosopher when i grow up :D ..

to my dear dear zhao zhao(: _good luck to your A-levels..im sure you'll do real well...dun dread it just sleep early,im lookin forward to the swim..15 more days..hurry!!

haha..i guess i'll come back better tomorrow..maybe hibernating in my cozy cot will make me feel better..after all..THATS THERAPY!! :D